Wednesday, October 22, 2008

life sans adversity is like a book sans conflict

OMG, that alpaca commercial is on AGAIN! what is the deal? does anyone else ever see that on TV?

that's not what this blog is about, but i find that commercial completely jarring.

real blog starts now.

for the past, i don't know, YEAR, i've been wondering how much adversity i must overcome before i "pass" the test. now maybe it really isn't a test. maybe it's karma, maybe it's bad luck, maybe i'm too snarky and this is punishment, maybe it's just something i as a human am not privy to because this "test" is preparing me for something later in my life, or even my afterlife, but for heaven's sake! there are days when i'm like, dang it, can i really pick myself up - AGAIN? and AGAIN? and AGAIN?

the answer is always yes, but i still ask myself that same question - every time. now i know i'm not the only one facing adversity. i know there are people out there going through more difficult things than me. but i'm a writer; i live in my own world a lot of the time.

despite the adversity, here i am - still. still getting drop-kicked in the e-mail and/or mailbox, but i keep trying. i love to write. i want to have a baby. i want the career, the man, EVERYTHING - just like my heroines. so, i'll just keep trying. even if some days it seems so damn hard. even when it seems so much easier for other people. even if other writers get published with stories that include petticoats, fanny packs, and leather deck shoes.

it's obvious i'm supposed to learn something specific while on this journey. well, i know the adversity is worth it. i've learned i'm tough enough to handle it. so what else am i overlooking?

5 comments:

Karilyn Bentley said...
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Trinity said...

I know you well enough to know you are one
tough chica and that you will persevere.

One day, I expect you to be on some multi-published writer's blog advising newbies to not f*@# up their big chance and chastising them for putting characters in stirrup pants and shell jewelry.

Hopefully the rest of us will be right there with you.

And hopefully I'll be right there with you.

christie said...

thanks! the best thing about being a spankster is you guys are so encouraging, and that is basically a necessity in this business. i just have to remember "lessons learned" on this journey because i think that HAS to be the reason we deal with delays, rejections, etc. still can't explain why it seems to happen fast and easy for some people, but i guess that's just life.

Trinity said...

Okay, so I tried to edit my comment and accidentally deleted Karen's. I'm sorry Karen.

I plead a migraine and lack of sleep.

Here's Karen's comment.

I completely understand what you're saying. Actually I've been dealing with some of the same thoughts lately. So you're not alone. Eventually everything will come together for you and work out for the best.

christie said...

christie,

there is so much more that you need to learn and i know you have been through a lot of pain and sorrow but this journey is not over. i promise that in the end you will have a full heart and a better understanding of why the journey was meant to be.

love,
yourself


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